I was looking through the terms that people commonly “Google” when the universe brings them to my blog. The most common search term is, “Co Parenting with a Narcissist“. There are obviously a lot of us. There are obviously a lot of people who worry about their children during visitations and a lot of people who live with a pit in the bottom of their stomachs. I wish that I would have known to Google that term a few years back as it would have given me a little glimpse into my future.
While it’s easy to Google, it’s difficult for me to actually say the words, “Co-Parent”. In my world, that term is almost laughable except for the simple fact that my daughters are involved. That part causes the humor to dissipate quickly. I would hardly describe my situation or anyone who is involved with a Narcissist as “co-parenting”. When I envision an airplane and a co-pilot, I automatically think of someone who is equally qualified to fly an airplane. A person who is trained, admirable and takes his/her job very seriously.
I don’t have a co-parent. I have someone who is manipulative, evil and self-centered. I have someone who’s entire goal and motivation in this battle is to win at all costs.
If I did have a co-parent then I would have zero anxiety about tomorrow’s visitation. If I did have a co-parent then I wouldn’t worry about my daughters’ safety when they are in his care. I wouldn’t have to worry about the influence that he has on my daughters or the emotional harm that he can do to them in a brief window of time.
I wish that I had a co-parent. I wish that my daughter’s had two parent’s who were both capable and loving.