As a young child, I decided that I didn’t want to be a mom. It seemed like SO MUCH responsibility. You know those women whose eyes glaze over and they become weird when they see a baby? They want to “smell” the baby and then claim that it is the “best smell in the world”. That wasn’t me. Everyone said that would change as I got older.
I was married at 26– still no urge to have a baby…27, 28, 29, 30….nope. Still no urge.
At 30 years old, I found out that I was pregnant. Every emotion in the world came flying at me 1.3 million miles per hour. I was terrified. I didn’t have a mom growing up and I didn’t know HOW to be a mom. If you don’t have a role model for motherhood, the thought of being a mother can be quite daunting. I didn’t have a support system– my family was 2,000 miles away and my husband was less than supportive.
I’ve been faced with many circumstances in life that would make most people crumble. I cope with all things the same way:
1. I cry. My nickname is “The Fountain” and the level of severity depends on the problem at hand- the tear scale varies between 1 tear and 100 tears. After that, I call my “Aunt Bev” for advice. She is a realist and will give it to me straight- whether I want to hear it or not.
2. I pull up my big girl panties (a quote that I am famous for repeating) and my tiara.
3. I access the situation and my options.
4. I put a smile on my face and I go forward. Staying behind doesn’t sound appealing to me!
5. I am a fighter and I am a survivor- always have been and always will be.
When I discovered that I was pregnant, I did each of the above things in order except this time, they were maternity panties that I was pulling up. If you’ve had the pleasure of pulling up maternity panties….one word: sexy!
I was going to be a mom! I embraced my new path and I actually got excited about it. I then decided that I wanted two daughters. Leave it to me to go from zero to two children before my first trimester was complete and then go so far as to decide on the sex of the babies. I was planning how far apart my “daughters” would be in age before my first ultrasound. Two years- that was the plan.
I took advantage of every pregnancy perk this side of the Mississippi River:
1. I welcomed offers to cut in line in the bathroom.
2. “Stork Parking” at Babys R Us? Yes, please. I needed every product, gadget and nursery item known to woman. American Express loved me….a lot.
3. Cravings and food in general: “Why thank you, I would like a bite of yours, too!” (***I went from 118lbs to 167lbs– desserts were my friend). I ate the same sandwich from our local coffee shop every day– twice a day.
In April of 2005, a 7lb 9oz little person came into my life and changed my world in every possible way. My daughter taught me the meaning of being selfless and loving unconditionally. Looking back, I couldn’t imagine my life without her.
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History of One Mom’s Battle: In 2011, One Mom’s Battle began with one mother (Tina Swithin) navigating the choppy waters of a high-conflict divorce in the Family Court System. Since then, it has turned into a grassroots movement reaching the far corners of the Earth with over 100-chapters in five different countries. In 2014, One Mom’s Battle achieved non-profit status which will allow the group to take their mission to the next level.
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